Working mother

I want to be a working mother someday.

But wait.
Do you really want to raise a child?
Maybe you just to want to have a child.

It's a tough work to raise a child.
I feel like a loser if I don't have the experience.

Life is not a competition.
Someone said to me long time ago.

You can live your own life.
You don't have to live someone else's life.

I'm getting confused.